This page is for all who have had to let go of hope. Who have journeyed to a place where there can be no more denial and are now facing the hard cold reality of a life without children of their own. 

It is NOT for those who are still trying- for them I would say - I fervently pray that this page is never needed as a help to you - and that your dreams do come true....

But for those of us who had to completely and finally "let go"- I pray that this site is in someway a blessing and encouraging and helpful.... because YOU ARE NOT ALONE! And despite this gaping painful hole in your heart- I pray that you find this truth deep-deep inside: That while you may feel broken and hopeless beyond repair- YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL, YOU ARE VALUABLE, YOU ARE WORTHY, AND MOST OF ALL - YOU ARE LOVED! 

If you wish to follow me on this path please click to the "My Journey" Page at the top of this and you will find it all laid out as it occurs...

This blog is my journey. Its going to be raw, honest and transparent. Its not going to start out pretty, and for once in my life I am not going to hide behind a fake smile and a "positive attitude", submerging myself in my career and shutting down my heart in denial rage and fear - because THAT'S NOT REAL- THATS NOT TRUTH.... and that's not healthy!

Its going to be a long journey- and one in which I am just beginning- so buckle-up buttercup.... there will not be a quick or easy answer or end to this story-and I am just going to post in journal format as it pours out of my heart... It is not going to start out very fact it may seem hopeless and bitter in the beginning - but it is going to be very real and I pray if you choose to journey with me that in spite of the volatile emotions that emerge...that you will still cling with me in love to the hope that WE WILL one day emerge on the other side stronger and having found freedom in love, acceptance, unity and peace.

I pray that as my transparent journey unfolds before you that you will see not just the pain and bitterness- but the beauty and strength and love that I hope, pray and believe can emerge out of such emptiness and brokenhearted darkness that only those facing the same can possibly understand. I pray that as I expose this deepest of pain, that you will journey with me, and that together we can find Joy and Peace and Purpose again....because I believe in the Giver of all Good Things- and I believe His love will never fail me- and His strength will somehow guide me and get me thru this dessert....

I am not a counselor or a therapist, I am just an ordinary woman and there may be things in this journey that I say that may not be helpful, may even be offensive to some, but I will not waiver from this path and seek only to be real and honest and leave it in Gods hands to do with what He wills.... I pray for anyone reading this that God would provide grace filled and loving personal support in their lives and I encourage any woman going thru this to seek that support and if none can be found around them- that they would know there is no shame if they need to reach out to a pastor, counselor or therapist for help.

I will make no apologies for my faith- because for me without it life truly has no meaning..... and even if I falter and doubt in my day by day and sometimes breath by breath overwhelming battle with despair and pain.....even if doubts and rage emerge... I believe that My God will never leave me or forsake me....
Because I am His- and I am broken- but in His eyes I am beautiful, and LOVED beyond measure.....

I pray that it does not turn you from this page... but that even if you do not share my beliefs that you still find strength and comfort in knowing that you are not alone and that women all over the world understand your pain and your battle.

I will also share poems and articles that I come across that express honest truths and I am hoping to be able to share your comments and stories ( with your permission) as they come in so that you will feel the strength and love that comes thru when we all reach out in unity, understanding, and love.

If you wish to follow me on this path please click to the "MY JOURNEY" Page at the top of this and you will find it all laid out as it occurs...


08.03.2021 12:48


I have good helpful news to share with you all, I am 39 years old. my husband and I are hoping to have a child and are actively trying with no luck. My significant other and I have been together 8 ye

21.08.2015 14:15


Need more

21.08.2015 16:55

st are right....I have been hesitating to post since Mothers Day... but I have been I will try to go back and post some of my journey from then until now..

27.05.2015 13:22

Katherine Stahl

Thank you soooo much! Can't wait to see what's to come :)

27.05.2015 00:41

Michele Ornelas

Hello, thank you for this blog...

09.02.2015 02:39

Lori Zimbelman

Thank you. Have been waiting for this.

24.01.2015 07:25

Daina Pfister

Hi Shari , it's Daina from the group!!

09.02.2015 03:14


Hi Daina, Welcome! thanks for all your wonderful insight and words!